Vancouver Drift

would you believe me if i said my heart was good and not to believe anything else? would you judge me by letters spelling out words sent by proxy with no apparant malice, but rather an implicit and subconscious plea for acceptance?

i think we need a little trust on both ends.

ok, my email address is "ratherretarded@something.com", so i e-mail my supervisor, using that email address by accident. apparantly now i am offensive to mentally handicapped people, or people of the handicap persuasion to be more p.c.

the thing is, that i never even thought about it that way. i've never used the phrase "retarded" or "retard" with any pejorative implications of any sort. in my vocabulary, it does not exist as a negative word. it can only exist as such if i deemed it as such. so if i put it into my "bad words category". but it exists as a synonym for stupid to me. in the dictionary, it reads something like (as a verb), "to slow down the progress of development". and i was refering to my slow process of development (plus i thought my attempt at alliteration was rather intelligent). but how am i supposed to explain all of this to my supervisor? maybe it is she that has the bias against handicapped people, for in my very discourse, it does not exist as a word to offend, but rather as a slang or colloquialism that only gains meaning by the acknowlegement and active acceptance of its pejorative meaning. hah!
hah again i say!

maybe it is not i that offends through my non-offensive use of the word, but rather you! yes you! who choose to view it as an offensive usage.

we need more trust, more understanding, before we be so quick to judge and deem ourselves correct and others wrong.

of course, i am correct in all my previous statements. i have 1 / 25 pgs for my paper due tomorrow, see how good i am to my readers?